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Mariah in London (86,839) by Primzy from Slovenia Seeing Mariah live for the first time. Only a week until London. (Monday 3 December 2018; 23:34)

Thoughts from new member (84,452) by Primzy from Slovenia Dear people of MCArchives. I have decided to make myself an account amidst recent events and "anticipation" of MC15, however, I have been following this forum almost daily for more than 6 years now. I remember the first time I discovered the voice of Mariah Carey - it must have been somewhere in 2011, when she was no longer super popular. I felt amazed by her rich tone, her feminine awesomeness, and strong presence in her performances. I couldn't get enough of her performances from the 90's. It took me awhile, but I got to appreciate her post-2000 self as well - I felt that the musicality was still there. At that time, I haven't yet admitted to myself that I was gay - living in an oppressed environment - Mariah helped me through some rough time. Nothing unusual I suppose, I feel it's similar with many of you. That's why coming to this forum used to feel like home for me. However, that has changed. Support, optimism and hope are harder and harder to find here. Yes, the voice is not as it used to be. A big part of it is gone. We miss the rich tone, strong resonance, flexibility and soft vibrato. As the voice was the most prominent part of her identity, now she struggles with her self esteem, which shows in the performances, and also in her public image. Yet I always admired her for her perseverance - ability to face obstacles and go on. I believe she's still doing it. She may not be as oblivious to her age as it seems - as she often says - "she's doing the best she can with what she's got". Sometimes I think her fans are the ones that can't accept the facts. People that follow her from the beginning - do you look as good as in your twenties? Is your skin as pure, are your bodies as fresh? Is your personality the same? Well guess what, Mariah's not the same either. Maybe you're the one that needs to adapt and accept that you're mortal and can't turn back time. Only constant in life is change. These days, I really hope that Mariah isn't reading this forum. You keep judging everything she does and for her voice, not imagining how it must be for the woman who owns it - I'm sure she's feeling every sign of deterioration ten times more than you do. I will continue following her and finding joy in some details of pure musical genius, although these days those are more rare to find. I have no expectations, however, hope remains. It's Mariah who taught me that. Love to all. (Saturday 6 October 2018; 20:32)